the currents

today i began my search for the community college of choice in the cities of seattle and minneapolis. i had looked at schools in denver and portland. i will let you know more about portland with a more excessive description of my findings after i let you know about denver.

poo on denver.

Portland though. portland oh portland oh portland for thy love i feel is that of tubs and tanks filled with tons and tons of open arms, ideas, progressive thought, happy futures, love making, making out, making in, making futures, making full, finding knowledge, living a life that is like drinking the perfect temperature of coffee.

but for reals. portland community college offers a dual enrollment program with portland state university. i would have access to all the amenities that both schools provide. with one application and the lower cost of community college. with one foot in each school i will be able to take advantage of a vasarray of courses between the two as well as the combination of advisers from both schools.

i will probably make my focus sociology with my transfer into community development. i would love to grasp the development and effect of society on individuals as well as the communities they make up. with portlands progressive movement in their communities structure, i feel that my environment will greatly influence my learning. with all of this i will gain the strength to further a new fashion of community responsibility through programs designed to shape the lives of our future leaders.

the ability to move to portland is entirely realistic. its the following my heart that will be the deciding factor. at the moment i have invested a percentage of my heart into a partnership that is worth the opportunity to have a change of plan. a plan that i feel is as equally practical, mature and self-improving.

Dinosaur Jr.

you mean Dinosaur Sr.

a couple to surpass the time

i look to you and i know. 

the seasons change more often on the coast i do not wish to attend.

i look to know a knowledge of civilizations grown.

one mind expands 

and hearts will tend to follow.

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your body 

of false leading frailty 

is one that makes me weak, 

strong in presentation

i lead

lead 

lead 

lead 

lead 

lead 

lead 

lead,

lead 

is our love. 

the journeys to be carried,

my back is already in mourning,

but because of you 

i am strong in the morning.

in what form, in what time.

these cities are changing at a pace i do not grasp.  i hope their grasp on this change is stronger than mine.  

i have yet to understand how it succeeds.  probably because i am only twenty two and have yet to see so much.  as much as i have lived and experienced. these actual situations do not make up for the experience of time.  to see cities evolve, societies develop, culture and life styles change in a cities entirety.  

i did not experience equal rights grow.  i did not experience the evolution of a womans role in society.  i did not hear the movement of speeches.  i did not hear the drop of fear in the voices across our country.  i do hope though.  i did not before.  i did not fear before.  i fear now.  i hope for change as i fear we do not get it.  

in times that should be changing i believe i can have a hand in the direction it goes.  i feel that my heart is like that of many others living in cities that do not relate to their needs. cities that do not grow. cities that weep. i weep with them as i hope that you do too.

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summ "e" ry

i killed summer.

summer dead
me cold

i want
leaves

fall
grounded

without a love
i would wither

flowers
i want

soooo long and still short

i moved and i want to move again. i hate my place in a way that it is real. real lame. but it shouldnt be.

i am now working my forty hour week. i am now weak.

i volunteer. and smoke cigarettes. try to fit in a drink. make love. smile a lot. love. a lot. i like to dive head first. but i am not drowning.

my breathing is worse. my legs sometimes feel stronger. but not monday morning. they feel like i lived through a weekend.